‘Missing Bill’ by Lisa Oliver
Hannah says sometimes the voices are loud and clear, other times she only hears whispers, hints of a presence. Hannah hasn’t heard his voice yet, but says she’s sure Bill’s there. She says she can see a man with a thick head of white hair. Well, that’s Bill to a T. He was always so proud of his hair, it never thinned. And Hannah says he is very smartly dressed. He did look lovely in a suit. I used to be so proud of him when we went out. He liked to treat me to Sunday lunch every week. Even when he couldn’t drive any more he’d treat us to a taxi down to the White Lion. He said I shouldn’t be cooking on a Sunday; it was a day of rest. Oh, I do miss him.
Hannah says he is with me still, he’s never left me. He’s just on a different plane. One that I can’t, now, what was the word? Oh yes, one that I can’t ‘connect’ to. It’s hard to understand, but she’s ever so clever. Really puts it in a way that makes sense. She can connect you see. She’s got a gift. I’ve been seeing her for a while now and she says Bill’s presence is getting stronger all the time. My friend Lizzie has been going to see her for years. She lost her daughter you see. Hannah’s been a great comfort to her.
I never expected Hannah would be able to help me too. I was ever so sceptical the first time I went. Lizzie persuaded me, she said if it wasn’t for me then at least I’d given it a try. She knows how much I miss Bill. Well I would, wouldn’t I after being married to him for so long. Lizzie said I couldn’t carry on like this. She was right too. I did feel so much better after I saw Hannah. I felt like I had a little bit of Bill back with me. She said he was there next to me, resting his hand on my shoulder. I couldn’t feel anything mind, but she’s such a nice girl; she reassured me he was right there.
Our Sandra thinks I should leave well alone. She says it’s an expense I can’t afford. I don’t mind though, it’s worth it. And I don’t mind cutting back a little bit if it means, well, if it means I might hear from Bill. I do miss him.